Time not enough!!!

Its true that i really think the time is just not enough for me. Maybe my time management is not very good but i just seems to rush for the whole day with time. I wonder if its because the earth is spinning too fast? Or is it because we are too hasty?
What can we do? The world is developing too fast! The news are changing everyday, the things are keeping being improved. Today maybe i buy a new cellphone and tomorrow there will a new one with better functions and maybe cheaper.
By the mean of logical thinking, do you think the time is enough? There are totally 24 hours a day, and as a teenager, i supposed to have 8 hours of rest(but usually i only have 6),then there will be 16 hours left. I'll be in my school for about 6 hours, so there will be only 10 hours left. Averagely, i'll have to tuition for 2 hours a day, so there will be only 8 hours left. Ok, lets assume i can eat very fast and bath in a thunder speed, i need at least 2 hours for 3 meals and baths. After deducting, only 6 hours left. Since i go to tuition and school by bus, i have to spend time waiting and standing in the bus, if i count as 1 hour each day(usually not possible), there will be only 5 hours left. What about the time for doing homework and project? If i take it as 1 hour each day, then there will be 4 hours left for me to do the revision and study. Is it enough? Maybe, but if i live such life i might end up crazy. Thus, i at least need 1 hour for amusement, and what about the time to check mails, exercise, doing the hobbies' stuff, making friend, and some time i might join camping or others activities, i need to spend time on my family too, shopping with them, chat with them...
gahhhhhh!!!!!! time not enough!!!

Pathetic world!

Yesterday i went to my cousin's wedding party. It was quite amazing because they had invited so many people there and i was like stuck in a tuna can. Actually i'm not very closed to that cousin but just to accompany my mom. When i saw my cousin, i was so stunted because she looked soooo........... "plump" and her body was swelling abnormally that i almost couldn't recognise her. Later on i found that she is pregnant.
Its true that such cases are very common nowadays, but she is just 19, one year older than me, and she's going to have a baby at her 20th. I really can't understand the thinking of the teenagers nowadays, or maybe i am too conservative but i really think they should learn how to protect themselves! At such a young age they should be concentrating on their studies or career's developement so that they can have a better life, at least they can survive in such world without starved!
As i know from my mom, her husband is about her age, and not working, or more aptly still didn't think of getting a work eventhough he's getting married. He doesn't have much education too. I wander what the hell are they thinking? Shouldn't them be worried about how to feed themselves? Or they just want to rely on their parent forever? How can they be so irresponsible for their actions? How can they just do what they want after their sinful desire and not considering about the consequences? Sigh...
I had think of something about sex too of course, and also about love, but should i just have a girlfriend with me and i spend the money from my parents on her? Definitely no! I know this is somehow not acceptable, but, can you say i'm wrong?

Bad life

What another lousy week, keep doing the same routine like a walking machine. Why life is so hard? Everyday i have to wake up 6 at the morning to prepare to go to school by bus. Then, i have to take time study study and study in school and do some other projects. Meanwhile, since human are social animal, i have to make friends so that i don't get to tense up or too lonely. But the time for study just isn't enough. After that, i still have to go back by bus and then rush for tuition after having a quick meal, by bus again. So sick of taking bus, but this is my fate, is guess.
After a whole hectic day and a few hours waiting and standing on the bus, finally have some time for some leisure and rest. Why the others can be so easy in study while i can't? So tired for all these but life has to go on. Just wish the day will come when i can go for a travel to the world without any hesitations and worries...

I'm in love with loneliness...

Years ago, when i was still a very self-centred and shy boy, i always wish there will be anyone beside me to do something. At least i can feel a bit of security. I still remember the first time i went to kl for a part time job during holiday. That is a terrible experience. I had to stay in a filthy and maybe a little bit smelly hostel that was provided. I should had known that when the offer is so generous. In that night, i was always thinking about my family, my house. Ya, i'm really some kind of too relying on family. That's the reason i went there, to toughen myself.
However, after some experiences of taking bus here and there, i start to learn to live on my own. Even sometimes i think that it would be better to be alone. At least i won't be giving problems to the others and on the other hand the others won't give me any trouble.
About two months ago, my twin brother leave for his study. Though, he comes back once a week. Some of my friends asked me:"Don't you feel lonely when he's not around?"(Since he's the closest to me in my family) Sure they will think so, but actually i never upset about that. Maybe i do feel the loneliness, but under certain circumstances i do enjoy it. Is it mean that i have grown up? Or i'm in love with loneliness?
Maybe after these few years, i've never change, still self-centred, but just with a little bit of guts in facing life.

My friends, do you still remember me?

Yesterday I fell sick suddenly. As usual i thought it is just another temporary flu but it turned up worse after i came back from school. As a result, i went to clinic reluctantly. The doctor is quite talkative, and when he found out that i'm studying form 6, what had spitted out from him is only "form 6 is very hard, i tried it before. '
After that, i decided not to go to school today, because i really can't go. Today, i woke up very late in the morning, or more aptly, very early in the afternoon. Still very tired though, because of the illness. I rest a whole day laying on the sofa, watching television. I felt worry, because i should had a lot thing to do in school. And i can't go to tuition too. I might had skipped a lot, and i need to chase it up like hell after this.
I had never felt this before, because when i was in secondary school, i can skip any class i want, but still can catch up easily. But now, maybe not, because i am in form 6. My life is becoming more and more busy now, i doubt if i would become like this if i didn't take form 6. Busy life had caused me to abandone a lot of things in my life. I will usually plan something to do with my friend during free time, especially weekends, like playing badminton, share our computer games, playing card games...but not anymore.
Maybe its not because i'm busy, but they are...Ya, its true, we had getting busier now, and can't get together, or we have different friends now, living in different world, having different dreams to chase. I wonder if one day we meet each other on a street will we greet each other? Or we both will forget about each other?
My friends, do you still remember me?

How do you think?

Do you ever had a feeling that your teacher is teaching something not right or he/she is just here for his/her work, not to educate the posterity? Well, I do all the time. Maybe I should blame the government for being so easy in choosing these "educators"?
Let me give an example...last time my teacher,told us to finish a short essay of 50-60 words, that should not be too general, it should explain a topic in details. Sure its not easy, but I think I should just explain a simple thing. But on the next day, she demanded us to present it to the class. The one she praised is an one page long(A4 size texpad) essay, whereas the one she criticizes is the one with 50-60 words."This is a classic example that is not well-prepared" this is what she said.
Lets take a look at this one...
" My father bought me a new car on my eighteenth birthday"-What is mean by new?How new?
"The car is spacious and beautiful"-Beatiful is not a suitable word.By the way,how spacious and beautiful?
"It is very expensive too"I would like to know more about the price.
"having a car makes my life easier"What do you mean by "life easier"?
"It gives me freedom to travel wherever I want"Why it gives you freedom?Is it because your father caged you?Where you want to travel to?
This is the "classic example" I mention just now from one of my friend.I do not mean that the teacher is wrong, but she first limited us with 50-60 words, but then she demanded so much that is quite impossible to cover in just 50-60 words!
I think she must not like the Davincci code, because it is too ambiguous!